wanderlust

Month: February, 2013

Pain

by thegoldparachute

The amount of crap and curves life has thrown me these past 3 months is almost more than anything else I’ve ever experienced all my life.

God grant me strength.

My wound hurts so fucking badly right now.

The amount of work left undone since I spent yesterday on the op and today resting is too fucking much.

:'(

Grant me strength, love, and inner peace

DETERMINATION

by thegoldparachute

OKAY, NO MORE MOPING. NO MORE YEARNING. NO MORE STAYING BEHIND EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE ELSE.

Even though I’m lagging behind in my studies and have an uncompleted assignment due tomorrow, I will get my ass down to the gym today to run, and then I will bathe, and go out to have lunch, settle my assignment, and then carry on with my group meeting at Sentosa. 

You can do this, you can do this, you can do this

Gotta have faith in myself, in my own self-discipline, in my capabilities. 

LET’S GO

Yearn

by thegoldparachute

He’s all things bad for me, but I want him so bad. Why don’t I always get what I want :(

Lost

by thegoldparachute

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I feel so impossibly lost these days & I don’t know where to begin from.

My mind’s a mess, my heart’s a mess, & I really can’t seem to concentrate on anything. This is beginning to take a toll on me because it’s ongoing to week 5 of school & I still feel like a complete wreck.

It’s alright to act like everything’s okay, but sometimes I miss my dad so sorely it hurts so much inside. Times like these you learn to cry without shedding your tears, because these moments tend to hit at the most inopportune times in your life.

I feel like I’m living a damned life. It still hurts to see pictures of how everyone celebrated their 21st happily with their families, how they have family days still, and I never got to celebrate mine with Daddy. How could I when he was practically semi-conscious & battling life. God damn it, I shouldn’t even complaining about this, but I feel like my birthday’s damned & cursed for fuck’s sake.

Not ever gonna celebrate it again.